There's a specific spot I sit in at my Stats 210 class. It's the first seat of the second row near the front of the class, on the right and section when facing the front of the class. It's was "my seat" when I completed yet failed the first time attempt at this course, and it's my seat now for my second attempt; however.........
I entered the lecture hall around 10:54am today and found some chick sitting in "my seat". At first I thought she was from the previous class and was getting ready to leave. NOPE! I explained to her that this seat is important to me because I need it to get the best recording. (One of my accommodations I have is the ability to do so)
She said ok....but then tried to remind me to get to class early, or get a chair and sit in the front row. I immediately got defensive and copped an attitude with this girl saying she just needs to stop trying to give me suggestions, and that I'm just NOT in the mood for this.
The girl said she wasn't either and was having a rough week herself. Turns out both of us were hurting over the same thing. Grieving and shocked by the death of a fellow female vcu student.
When I found out she lived in the same place as the student, I just felt so guilty for being rude to her, and I proceeded to tell her how I knew this girl growing up and how rough it's been knowing she won't be around anymore. She was a bubbly, rambunctious, ball of joy!
The girl felt bad for me, and shared condolences with me. This girl ended up sharing some positive stuff with me, in which I traded some wisdom on doing well in stats. (ok more like what NOT to do in stats hahaha)
I share this little event today because I don't want to forget it. This story of knowing that I have got to get out of my head, and start living in the world everyone else is, and not my own little selfish one I have been in for so long. Everyone suffers, struggles, aches, fears, etc. I'm finally coming to a place in my life where just focusing on my problems is doing more harm to me than good.
As I type this out, I think back as to all the various people I have been talking to these past several days. I have heard of a lot of things that are hurting people, causing people anger, and others struggles that are currently in the midst of dealing with. Being informed of all these things, has actually helped me process my own problems!
It's tough to open up, but if you trust the person asking "what's going on?", then tell them! Trust me, there will come a time when someone you come across whose hurting/struggling and will need you to support them just as when you let them support you!
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